Believe
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I used to be very opinionated about the world
I knew how I felt about everything
Then some bad things started happening to me
and I wasn't so sure anymore
The things I had valued seemed so trivial and distant
The thing I had despised seemed like smaller scale versions of myself
Misrepresented and judged strictly on face value
Soon I didn't know how I felt about the world
My perspective changing with each second
Every day bringing forth a new angle
And along with everything else, bad things continued to happen
One thing piled on top of another, and everyday I felt it less and less
All until I got to the point where I knew nothing, felt nothing, completely numb and hollow
You could punch me square in the jaw and I wouldn't even flinch
I wouldn't even have enough passion to be mad at you for punching me
I had crawled so deeply within myself that I had disappeared completely
Everyone said it too;
Your not the same anymore..
Your not the girl I met and loved..
You've changed..
You've changed for the worst..
But it didn't mean anything but a word to me
Why should I give a damn that people "think" I've changed?
I knew that much
But I didn't choose to change
Mostly no one really does
These things just happen
You don't ask to see the evil look in a person's eye
You don't ask to be tied down or held at gunpoint
You don't ask to be beaten to a pulp or forced to smile for the ones who stole your freedom, dignity, and soul
You don't ask to watch friends bleed out the same colors they just got shot over
You don't ask for change but it comes hurling your way
Knocking down every self righteous opinion in its path
I'm saying all this so that you understand
I've changed in order to survive
But survivng isn't enough for me
I want to live
I want to have passion
I want to feel like there is just a bit of sense and order in this world
I want to believe that there are good things waiting to be explored
And every time you look at me and make me smile
I can believe it just a lil bit more